Moving On.





Last week was emotional. You may have noticed I was a bit absent from this space. Not because I didn't have projects to share or because I wasn't capturing the beauty in my life as I always try to do. To put it simply, my heart was sad. We closed on the cozy brick house. It seems like a trivial thing but the attachment I feel to those brick walls is something fierce. It may be due to all of the work we put into it. Or because my two youngest have only known that place as home. Or maybe it's because that's the home I was living in when I really figured out who I was as a person, a mother, a wife, a friend.

I know this move was the right thing for our family. It has been proven to us over + over but that didn't stop me from taking a few minutes to myself and escaping to the comfort of that place one last time. I armed myself with my camera and swore I would capture everything I loved most. The front door. The charming built in hutch in the dining room. The bathroom tile. The wainscoting + hardwood floor. The pendant light above the sink. The tile in the kitchen. The green french door leading to the basement. The brick. My Lily of the Valley patch out front.

The house echoed. And my heart broke. As tears trickled down my face a movie played in my mind. I saw myself consoling a colicky Oliver in the front room. I saw Audrey dancing around in her tutu. I saw Easton shooting hoops in the backyard. I saw Owen drawing at the kitchen table. I saw Abby making friendship bracelets while watching Soul Surfer. I know that the cozy brick house was merely the set of all those happy everyday moments. We'll still have those moments. The characters are the same, it's just the location that's changed.

21 comments:

  1. not fair to make me cry this morning.

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  2. I cried so hard when I left the house that my first 2 sons were "born into." I felt like I was being a fickle friend to the home that had seen some great Christmases and birthdays. That was 20 years ago. Being sad about moving means that you're really good at creating a home.

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  3. ((((((HUGS)))))) You will love your new home just the same in time.

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  4. It is a great house. You and Ryan transformed it into a thing of simple beauty. I will miss visiting with you there, and I will miss driving up to mom and dads and glancing over to see Audrey prancing around in her swimsuit, or Ollie following Owen around the yard.

    The thing that makes me smile even though I'm sad is that I know you will make this new home and every home you live in something extra special too.

    xo,
    Marilyn

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  5. A house is a house, but the people inside make it a home. May the new family love it as much as you do.

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  6. It's so hard leaving a happy house isn't it? Enjoy making more memories to add to your existing ones.

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  7. Ah, moving is so hard. Blessings as you make this transition!

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  8. You are wise to document the memories with photos.

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  9. It is so hard to let go and say good bye. I know this all too well. But I am sure you will make lots of wonderful new memories in your new home and this will always be an important part of your life to look back on!
    Hugs xxx

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  10. there is something so melancholy about change...and so exciting at the same time. Your sweet post pulls at my heart strings. :)

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  11. oh dear. the end of an era, i suppose. those are never easy, but almost always worthwhile.

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  12. Wow, your beautiful heartfelt post has brought tears to my eyes. I was just imagining having to leave my house (and I haven't put in nearly as much work as you have!) and I choked up. I'm sure the new owners will love and appreciate it as much as you have. And I have a feeling you'll love your new house just as much!

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  13. thanks for sharing your beautiful memories.

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  14. You wrote this so beautifully, capturing so much raw humanness. <3

    You're blessed to have those pocketfuls of memories.

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  15. Lovely post, I can feel the emotional behind the words.
    I too am moving from my first home after having lived there for 11 years. I feel exactly the same. Excited, nervous, vulnerable... excited!!!
    Good luck in the new house.

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  16. Lovely post. I loved every peek into your home. And I am excited to see what happens in your new home.

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  17. Great post! Enjoy the next part of your story called life!

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  18. It is hard to say goodbye to a beloved house. Your pictures and memories are beautiful. At least you will always have that, right?

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  19. You leave the house but all the memories you shared together will be yours forever.

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  20. Love this post. We have 4 kids and moved 13 times our first 20 years of marriage--between the U.S., Costa Rica and Spain. And every time i took pictures of our home and had a sadness of leaving it behind with all the memories it held. There's something about a home...

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